well here it goes again,

and so as i continue to live my adventurous life, ive always got these rough times. you know, i dont wanna be emo, i dont wanna go metally ill, and i just dont wanna lose control. but apparently its been more than just your average rough. i mean im slowing growing apart from people, im losing my self confidence again, and as youve heard me say many times, i dont have the perfect family. i guess you can say i can be a bit sensitive. hey this is life, nothings perfect. ill admit, i have the careless and big time flaws. ive wrecked things with a person, and im not the nicest person. i wish i was the better person. i want the family's support, the real one. i want people to not judge me for something im far from being similar to. and you know whats the suckish thing about this, i think i am my own bestfriend. i can see it in my "friends" eyes and actions, theres not doubt they think im _ _ _. it sucks that have of my family thinks that too. but seriously, can you blame me for being the only guy in the house. i guess not growing up with my dad has its affect on me now. i guess im alone this time. gah, i feel ridiculous of posting this. i mean no one cares. i just felt the need to let it all out. well here it goes again, my selfish, unimportant, and mean self. im slowly breaking down... as always.