i never get to see what i want to see. when im staring at myself, i wannna see ME and only ME. but why is it that i have so many different versions of myseelf? as if im more than one person. theres the cool guy, the nice guy, the bitch ass, and of course, the heartbreaker. i can never be satisfied for who i am. the one who cant be trusted, the one who cant be loved, the one who has no REAL support, yeah thats me. im sick of being treated like just another face in the mirror. people dont really see my worth, what im made of, what purpose on this earth is. it must be nice having a family who treats you with true respect and support. well i for one dont have that. i wish my family, friends, haters, and peers saw me for who i am and not for who im not. i wonder if it makes you think when you hear someone say something like "my family thinks im _ _ _." GAAH, who is there for me? who is there to cherish me for the right reasons? tell me.
as im typing this, im thinking of someone specifically. and if i were to tell you something, mann, basically, im sorry. i cant pull off something as tough as trying to keep up in image. you know what i mean. im tired of hurting you, lying to you, pretending like this is nothing, and im tired of loving you the way you dont want me to love you. since you tell me i treat you like crap, im sorry i do. i dont do that purposely. and now, since youre like saying goodbye to me, what am i suppose to do. i guess keeping an image can be a challenge... but nothing can reach the level of this game when it comes to hurting people. im playing a game where its like you vs the world that surrounds you. its pure WAR. i want to love you, but in the way i want to. i hope we can fix this. i wanna be your special someone. the someone who can be your best friend, your pal, your everything.
